Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Not Such a Happy Lady

Both of us crying in front of the window.

Lucy's been having screaming fits lately. We're still trying to figure out why, so we can fix her. Sometimes she screams because she's about to poop. Sometimes she screams because she's tired but needs help falling asleep. And sometimes she screams because...who knows?

It's tough to be a patient mom when your baby screams and cries for hours. I think the lullabies I sing her are mostly to calm me down, and the bouncy dances I do are mostly to soothe myself. I feel so much despair knowing that Tim won't be home for hours, that I have to do it alone until then, and that I have to do the same thing tomorrow, and the next day, and the next.

Being a stay at home mom is hard.


  1. I remember those days like they were yesterday. It's just hard helping a baby learn to live in the outside world. Lucy is so lucky you're her mom and are there to hold her as she learns. Hugs to you both!

  2. Long-distance hugs from me too! The task of being entirely responsible for a tiny person's sustinance and emotional happiness is overwhelming and seemingly impossible! But your arms and hugs and voice are the world that she knows and loves. She's safe there and you are figuring it out together!